Blog :: Feb 25 12, 17:47
Mom
by
naisbel, (http://naisbel.shoe.org/)
My mom passed away sunday. I ran as fast as I could to get there before she died.It was unexpected and unaccepting.I tried to tell her I am a lesbian hoping she would get mad and wake up and yell at me,but she didnt and I never got the chance to say it.She slipped away as we stood there helpless and crying for what we wanted not to be true.I begged her not to go altho I knew all the begging in the world wouldnt stop her from leaving.Even as i sit here writing this as a grown woman,I feel like such a child.A child that cursed her mother a thousand times while growing up for whatever childish reasons we do those things for.And now,Ive cried a million tears for her to be here.I hope that mom understands the reasoning behind choices I made in life and knows none were ever intended to hurt her.I love you mom,I always have.I need you and always have.
© 2012 by
naisbel, http://naisbel.shoe.org/
She was your mom - she loved you. Nothing else matters. 
I just read this and feel a need to share. I lost my mom almost 19 years, and there is never a day that goes bye, that I don't miss her. I hope you have only happy, good memorrys of your mom these days!